ANOTHER doctor appointment

Sooo, I'm sitting here and decided to catch up on some of my blogging. I haven't really been reading or obviously writing. Looking back and seeing when I actually posted a blog was when I found out ....

Found out what???? Found out that I had a miscarriage - even though none of my doctors will really tell me a whole lot about it. They were running tests to see what exactly what went wrong, but yet I still have to hear anything. Typical hospital nonsense I assume. So I was also told that I had MANY cysts on both sides. More on the right side then the left which is ironic cause its the left side that is killing me so much. So by many apparently I had over 13 on one side and I don't remember the number on the other side, but it was close to the same number. The good news was that none of them were extremely large. They were close to being what they say need to be operated on immediately, but well I don't want to go through that sooo. Then I also had multiple cysts that had ruptured and there was fluid still present. I guess they could see this through the CT scan or maybe the US or Sonogram. Then not to mention the infection that I also had. So basically I had a few weeks of major misery, but am feeling better in general. I still don't feel great and still have that annoying pain. The good news is that its not like it was with the stabbing pain I had before. So maybe things are looking up.

So on Monday, I have an ob appointment again. They are doing another sonogram to see how the cysts are doing and I guess to see how everything else is doing. I am actually really anxious about the appointment. I guess because I don't necessarily feel like I am getting any actual answers about anything. I want them to talk to me about when we could potentially start trying. Which I know wouldn't be for several months because of some of the medicine I was taking for the infection would cause either another miscarriage or severe birth defects. So that is obviously not something that we want to mess with, but I am just feeling a little overwhelmed.

I hope that in this next appointment they actually tell me something useful. They tell me what I can expect. They can tell me if I will have any issues TTC. Or what is going on. I hate the unkown. I hate not knowing - I think that is the worst part.